"I had managed to make it through OCS, with a lot of pressure and tension. Anyway, I was now an Ensign in the United States Naval Reserve. I had nearly killed myself in the attempt to become one, and my nerves were nearly shot. The additional money was already nice, and I still wasn’t used to the treatment I was getting--maid service Monday through Friday in a very nice room at the BOQ, for starters. And things were promising to get even nicer. I had two cars, now--one brand-new model for me and one slightly older model, for my sister. They were both parked at home, because I was going to Fort Benjamin Harrison, Indiana, to complete an information officers’ course before I left for my permanent duty station at NAS Memphis, Millington, Tennessee. I had been able to think a lot about myself, and I knew that I was going to have to sacrifice a lot of my social life, now. I could still date, but I was going to have to be very selective. After talking to Isaac last week, I knew more than ever that I was looking for someone just like him. It was a shame that we would never be able to get together. I thought we would have made a beautiful couple."